"that" adventure

august 21st 2024

i scrolled through posts on instagram 
filled with faces of people i didn't know 
& with backdrops of places i had never been 
i felt left out, i felt longing 
i wanted "that" adventure 

so i went 

i packed my clothes & a few picture frames 
i flew the miles 
i cried the homesick tears 
my body existed in one of those 
instagram backdrops 
but still 
i heard stories 
of girls in foreign lands 
alone but strong 
carrying their packs & hopping trains 
i felt that yearning again 
"that" adventure 

so i went 

i put my fears aside 
i took myself on journeys
i sat alone on planes & trains & buses 
i explored, learned & grew 
i was amazed at my ability 
but i felt a tug 
a pull towards familiar lands & comfort 

i resented it 
it wasn't "that" adventure 
but the feeling was so strong 
my heart & my head battled it out 
& my heart won 

so i went 

i concluded my time overseas 
i flew the miles 
i cried the happy tears 
i felt filled to the brim with graditude 

i came home 

i nestled back into the mountains
& the arms of loved ones 
i didn't give it all up to live 
"that" adventure 
i came home to continue 
my adventure