Alone/Lonely

April 4th, 2024

I’m so good at being alone.

I can take myself out on dinner dates,

out for drinks on a Wednesday

I can walk myself home or around the park

I can hop on a plane holding my own hand,

entertain myself on vacation

How good it feels to fully love my own company

so much so,

that I’m worried

others just might be jealous of my friendship with myself

maybe they ponder, “why is she always hanging out with herself?”

maybe they think, “I wish she would hangout with me more!”

and I hate to disappoint my people who stand just outside of

this one-woman friendship circle

I shall try to acquiesce to their desires, of course.

but what if this is just wishful thinking

because I find that being alone

is, a lot of times, my only option

& sometimes

me, myself & I

start to feel the nasty nag of loneliness,

the crave of companionship,

and then…

I’m not so good at being alone.